How to drop the creative struggle
You know in your core that you can’t live without creativity, but every time you try to start a new project, you quickly lose the joy or momentum?
As an artist, illustrator and multi-distracted creative, I know how real and challenging creativity can be. It’s all consuming in a good way, but when your ego gets in the way, it can rob you of that joyful feeling you want to experience.
Where does it all come from?
I don’t think we can deny that many difficult experiences with confidence, self-esteem or motivation to follow-through on projects stems from early year experiences. Personally most of my negative experiences came from school. Art was never about how it made me feel, always how well I could respond to the teachers request- it was an exercise in moulding my mind, instead of encouraging a holistic response to a painting I either liked or disliked.
You too could analyse where your lack-of-confidence comes from, but really the healing will come when you make a conscious decision to train yourself into a new way of responding and working with your creative flow. Ok, so your ego has it’s essential place and is their to make judgements that could potentially save your life, it’s part of you and you must embrace it, but this does not mean it gets to run the show indefinitely. Your EGO is a safe place a haven for excuses and library of limitations; it’s NOT here to help you access FLOW, it wants to remind you of all the backlog of things you find scary and to encourage you to stop now, before you get hurt”
In Elizabeth Gilbert's book Big Magic, she uses the analogy of not allowing the ego mind to take the driver's seat and definitely not be involved in changing the radio station in the car. I loved this.
So place your ego on time out and what I find helps so much is to become aware of when it’s creeping in. My ego crept in just before writing this blog post.
Do you know, that I nearly packed my laptop away, because I was saying to myself “i don’t know what to write about, I’m no good at writing, what if people don’t find it useful? Am I really being of service? What should I include in this post? Ahhhh…. Can you see how much time your ego gets to play around rent free in your beautiful head?
It’s actually absurd isn’t it?
Once you become aware of the EGO and what it’s trying to achieve, you can take a stand and intentionally ignore it (well for a while at least) push yourself through on your next task, move through blocks quickly.
If for example I don’t know what to write next, I will literally type that. This honesty with yourself, creates trust that you can work through it and you will come up with the solution.
Self-soothing has its place too, it can be a powerful and compassionate tool in your mindfulness kit to pull out when you need a good hug and time to convalesce, but it shouldn’t be used to hide away from the work you must do; in other words, your creativity isn’t always going to feel like ‘good’ sometimes it will be uncomfortable (especially when upgrading your mindset habits) In order to grow creativity, you have to learn techniques, which will inevitably piss you off at some point, but once you figure it out, that joy you feel is indescribable.
You must show up for YOU and your creativity
Uncomfortable doesn’t equate to endless struggle, often the struggle is because you wont commit. You wont commit because you don't see your value or your beauty.
Acknowledging your creative magic
It does take time for your creative magic to be seen by you, it’s always there of course, sometimes you need some else (like me) to see it and to remind you of that. The real scoop on how to find something, is to stop seeking it.
You’re struggling because you care so much about your inner artist and you’re achingly in love with living a creative life.
Once you acknowledge that you are a creative force in your life and it’s okay not to have the answers right now, you're already moving out of the victim mindset into the victor mindset.
It takes courage to be creative
Your creativity is your breath, your heart on your sleeve, it’s how you speak, draw, paint, write, interact and give back to this beautiful planet. It’s your essence, so yes it takes courage to share that (even with yourself)
You can still be a shy beautiful mixture of wild introvert and savvy creative business owner all at once. You’re the alchemist in your own life, you’re the painter of the next picture and the author of the next chapter.
The struggle that you think you’re having is just the universe/god's way of waking you up to new possibilities- you are actually becoming the artist you’ve always wanted to be
So now YOU CAN drop the creative struggle because it’s wasting your precious time- now go and create something beautiful.
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